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SAD

2010-04-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

SAD

parah nih hari,gw ngerasa sedih banget, gw gak tau mesti ngapain lagi, gw bener-bener stres, gw udah coba ngomong ke Temen-temen gw tentang masalah ini ,dan mereka semua bingung juga, parah, gw pun makin bingung, kenapa gw yang salah?, kehadirannya membuat gw bahagia, kehadirannya membuat suasana hidup gw jadi beda, hidup gw yang dulu suram banget,

dan gw lelah nyari pengganti nya, gw gak bisa nemuin, karna dia udah perfect banget bagi gw, senyum yang indah, sifatnya yang seperti tantangan, sikapnya yang care dan jaga diri banget, gw butuh cewek kayak dia, tapi apa dia berharap ke gw seperti itu???

bales sms gw ajah udah kayak gw bukan temen sms-anya, cuma sebagai informan ajah gw, jawab singkat banget, gw coba positive thinking, gw habisin waktu 2jam di kamar mandi, sambil terguyur derasnya air yang turun dari shower, rasanya nenangin banget, yah walau gusar, gw mikir terus-terusan, kenapa sampe bisa begini? seandainya waktu itu dia gak sms-an sama temen gw gak begini nasib gw,dia nyuruh gw jangan banyak berharap ke dia, yah kalo orang hidup tanpa harapan gimana ada hidupnya?! semua pasti punya harapan, tapi kenapa gw gak boleh berharap banyak, apa rasa sayang dia itu cuma buat mainin gw? gw rasa dia sangat menikmatinya dengan nikmat untuk mempermainkan gw, dia disana senang dengan hidupnya, disini gw, hanya sedih sendiri terguyur air shower, dan hanya berharap dia kembali, dia gak pernah ngerti gw, tapi gw selalu untuk ngertiin dia, dia selalu nganggap gw anak kecil, gw ngerti gw keras kepala, karena dia ngak pernah kasih gw kesempatan yang sesuai dengan hati dia, mulut dia jawab ngak, hatinya jawab iya, apa yang dia pingin dari gw? apa kurang puas dia ngehina gw, dan lain-lain, gw juga manusia biasa butuh kasih sayang, gw gak butuh dia ngerendahin gw, gw gak butuh dia kasihanin gw, gw cuma butuh dia tulus sama gw, bukan jadi mainan gini gw!

kalo dia udah jadi milik gw, mungkin dia baru tau gw seperti apa, gw gak bisa leluasa bergerak untuk deketin dia, gw gak bisa extreme challenge lagi, gw cuma butuh dia, dia mulai main bohong ke gw, dia sayang gw, tapi kenapa mesti di hapus si?! gw bisa bikin itu lebih besar, tapi dia gak ngerti! dia milih cowok yang hanya bisa ngekang dia, ngak ngertiin dia pingin kemana?! sama orang tua dia ajah tuh cowok cuma dianggap status doang, tapi napa mesti dilanjutin? gw tau dia sayang ma cowok itu!? terus selama ini kalo dia bilang dia juga sayang ma gw itu apaan? cuma fitnah? kasihan? mainan?

serah lu pada dah mau comment apa! gw cuma mau keluarin unek2 gw doang di nnih blog kesayangan gw! blog ini saksi hidup yang bisu :)

New Story About Me

2009-11-30T02:23:00.000-08:00

MY STORY about DIVING

oi Blog udah lama gak gw isi lu, , kasihan juga lu udah jarang da yang liat , ,
nah sekarang gw Nge-Pos tentang kejadian masa lalu gw pas GWR,atau di indonesia itu rekor muri. .
oke lanjut,
hari pertama dalam perjalan, gw merasa bahagia ternyata gw sampai ke tempat dimana semua penyelam ingin datang untuk menyelam di laut yang sangat indah ini, tetapi ada 1 masalah yaitu gw kehabisan kamar, dan gw haru ngungsi di kamar temen bokap gw, nah 1 kamar yang mestinya 3 orang jadi 6 orang, seru dah tuh tidurnya mepet2, :))
Sore nya gw mulai tuh nyiapin buat Fun dive, alat yang sangat berat mulai di pindah kan dari Box ke Kapal, Dan awak kapalnya bilang "jo,kita jlan" gw ngak ngerti tuh bahasa menado, bingung dan bengong gw. ckck
nah pas udah jalan awak kapalnya bilang "jo mau liat ikan mandarin kawin,tidak?? pas sore bnyak ikan mandarin kawin, deket belakang mall situ" nah gw bingung masa ikan betuknya kayak huruf mandarin atw bisa bhs mandarin nih ikan. , sambil penasaran langsung dah gw siap2in alat2 supaya bisa ngeliat tuh kan dari deket, nah pas udah jam 5an kita ada 6 orang tuh turun langsung ke laut, tapi sebelumnya ada briefing,
kita haru naik maximal jam 7 karena udah terlalu larut, ntar pas dinnernya ngak tepat sama yang di hotel ,

nah kita nyebur pertama kalinya gw nyelem di manado yang indah walau belum ke bunakenya tapi dipinggiranya saja udah bagus karang2nya,terkejut gw begtu ngeliat ikan nempel berdua gitu yang warna nya biru2 gtu dah, , nah nih fotonya

nah lu udah pada liat kan tuh ikan nempel2 haha, ,
itu doang yang mengesankan pada hari pertama

hari ke -2 kita ke bunaken nah ini yang paling keren,gw suka banget hari ini
hari ke -2 ini gw dapet bnyak foto cuma yang gw upload cuma 3 foto ajah kasihan blog gw ntar penuh lagi haha
sama seperti kemaren gw bangun dan menyelam dari pagi sampai malam, ,
nah nih foto nya
nah ada lagi yang lebih hebat yaiutu gw ketemu penyu gede banget, lebih besar dari pada yang di ujung kulon

nah itu hari 2
hari ke -3 gw sih nothing spesial tapi pas gw OL FB, ternyata cwek gw ol juga jadi lumayan bearti lah hari itu gw saling tuker cerita pas di manado pas dia main volly, gw sayang dia banget, dan waktu itu dia juga sayang gw banget, seneng bgd gw pas manado ternyata dia setuju gw pergi jauh selama 1 minggu
tapi kadang gw punya rasa kangen yang dalem sampe gw harus liat fotonya dulu baru tenang,
yah namanya hidup setiap orang beda2.
nah hari ke - 4 mulai tuh gladi koto buat GWR upacara didalam laut dan, penyelam terbanyak, yang sebelumnya kalo ngak salah cuma 900an orang, , kita pecahin jadi 2460 orang rekor yang telak ,haha
nah hari k-5
kita ngerayain hari kemerdekaan kita, dibawah air, emng enak si dingin cuma ngak tahan pegel dan sumpek, karen pas naik pasir yang dikibaskan oleh kaki kataknya atw VIN,mereka mebuat pasir naik semua, itulah hari ke 5, pada malemnya gw ketemu seorang tante2 yang kenal ma bokap dia kenalan sama gw, dia baik dan yah penyelam juga tentunya
gw pulang ke hotel dan bokap gw panggil gw ke Restaurant katanya disuruh coba minum minuman beralkohol yah gw coba wine 1x dan gw coba lagi vodka 1x,yah lumayan pusing,tapi untuk ngerayain minimal minum sekali haha, bis itu gw tidur di kamar dan tertidur lelap dan lucunya om gw yang mabok selalu bilang "aduh telponiin bini gw,kayak nya udah ngak bisa bediri nih aduhh adduhh " dan gw selalu ngakak sebelum tidur, haha
nah hari ke -6, hari nya pindah hotel,
pas pindah hotel gw dapet bagian buat night dive nah seremnya banyak ikan yang ngak pernah gw lihat sebelumnya walaupun bukan yang pertama x nya gw night divem
hari ke- 7 gw siap2 untuk pulang dan sampainya di jakarta gw langsung cabut kerumah cwek gw, dan melepas rindu,

THE END

The Saturday's Main event

2009-06-29T22:28:00.000-07:00

--Saturday--

-GO TO SANGHIANG-

When saturday is coming, my father wake up, and make me up..he told me that I would go diving,, i'm very Happy,

after that..

i go to dinning room for breakfast,i eat indomie or Mie..then it's empty,, i go to bathroom and take bath..

after that i go to father's car,we go to traditional market we buy 45 "NASI BOGANA" or My Father call "NASI BALI" after we buy it,,we must meet my father's friend because she is want go to sanghiang Together,and we meet her,and she and my father take her diving equipment to Our car, and we go to My father's friends again with same reason,

after that

we go to rest area ( beside Highway) at 43 KM because My father's friends waiting us there

after 30 minutes we waiting another, we go to ANYER and we must waiting almost 1 hour in Highway because very long from Tangerang to anyer and this HIghway not good his condition..

after 1 hour we arrive..

and we take diving equipment to boats and we go to sanghiang's island, but we aren't go to the island but on the fringe of island,,

during a trip there to sleep, eat, chat,and etc,

and from anyer to this island is approximately 45 minutes,

after 45 minute

we prepare our equipment,

and this is 1st dive for today,,we go down..

it turn out far from our alleged,so turbid,we can't see anything with clear,,we go down with 30 minutes for 1st dive,

and we must waiting 1 hour for 2nd dive,for reduce nitrogen in our body, while waiting for 1 hour, we eat "nasi bogana/begana/bali" and after 1 hour we go down,

and this is better than the first,and my father take my photo underwater,and this is my first time photo underwater, and i have that photos..my photo are take because my father's friends is have asscend, asscend is we go to surface and go down come back before 1 hour,that is asscend

and his divecom or dive computer has removed,and he give it to my father,,because he is out air, i,and my father have a lot of air, we take a photo for relax and not get bored ,we can get bored beacuse this view is turbid,but we don't have bored because coral reefs that are still good,and that have diverse fish,with diverse color, and diverse species

waw,,that is so beautifully.

and this is my photo

that's my first time underwater's photo after 13 minutes because asscend we go up to the surface, and go out from water and go to boat,and we waiting a hour for a last dive or 3rd dive for today,hahah

and the last dive is more fun because i meet a nemo,and anemon, it's realy fantastic, because if sea is turbid,the nemo is bring his self to meet us, and i have photo with this nemo..

yeah that is nemo with anemon.. that's so cute you know.. after we in underwater with 50 minutes,we go up and Give a attention to people up there or people On the boat

and after that, we go to home,and we arrive to the land almost 7:00 P.M. waw, we take up our equipment, we change our clothes and we go to ther restorant in the cilegon's city

we eat together, until 11:00 P.M. and after that we go home,we go home and untik my home almost 01:00 A.M. so sleppy but, i'm happy with my dive today..

oke that is my story in this Saturday,how about you??? what are you doing with you saturday?? are there funny?? or bad? or Nice? that is you saturday!

THE END

hari sabtu yang melelahkan

2009-06-15T20:00:00.001-07:00

...Hari sabtu...

gw awalin dengan bangun tidur,,,hahahha(semua orang juga begoo)
oke kita lanjutkan lagi,,setelah gw bangun Tiba-tiba temen gw yang namanya jeremia w a.K.a bejo or ojeb SMS gw tentang jadi engak nya main futsal hari itu,,dan gw jawab iya jadi pukul 10.00
nah,,pukul 10.30 didepan pager ruma gw udah rame banget ada sekitar 10 anak dengan membawa motor untuk segera memanggil gw dan menjeput gw agar bisa jalan bersama ke lap. futsal...
nah dari rumah gw,,kita ke rumah Cristel untuk jemput lagi,,dari rumah cristel gw inget gw lupa bawa kaos kaki,,,waaaaahh sial bangett akhir nya gw pinjem cristel,,dan dia kasih 1pasang kaos kaki putih buat gw apke ntar pas main..
sesudah sampainya disana lap. futsal mulai penuh..ada sekitar 19 orang-an untuk siap bermain,,hahha
ada orang yang tidak kami kenal berkata "woy,itu lap. nya penuh banget,,,bola ngak jalan"
dan kami hiraukan demi kebersamaan ,,
naaaaaaah
lanjuttttttt.....
kita main 2 jam,,,setalah 1 jam berlalu gw dan anak-anak NSR, pingin jalan ke puri dan kamu memutuskan untuk pulang,bis itu mandi dan kita jalan...
nah sebelum balik kita patungan buat Nyewa lapangan..nahh
gw balik,,,gw lakuin itu semua dan ahkhirnya anak2 NSR udah mpe depan hums gw,,
dan gw bilang ke Nyokap gw bahwa gw mau pergi ke puri,,,dan itu adalah first time i ask her for go to puri with a motorcycle,,hahha she told me "don't go to there quickly,,slowly but your live is save"
hahaha yaaah seperti itu lah orangtua yang protect sama anaknyaa
sperti orang tua lainnya
pas dijalan gw ketemua sama anak2 yang main Futsal ma gw tadi kayak Leo,aldi,rio,dll mereka nagih duit ke kita,,karena kurang duitnya buat nyewa lapangan...hahaha,,,gila seorang jadi bayar 10.000..yang aturan cuma bayar 5000 gara2 salah penjaga Lapangan futsal,sekaligus managernya jadi bayar 10.000..sialan...

naaaaaah setelah ketemu mereka gw ma temen2 langsung jalan ke puri...dan memakan waktu selama 10 menitt

naah sampainya disana gw main MT,gw lakukan apa yang menjadi kebiasan gw disana,ternyata setelah sampai di XXI gw ngeliat mesin MT Full banget gw jadi dapet giliran beberapa kali doang sial,,nie sial tapi menguntungkan
kepuasan gw berkurang dan pengeluaran gw juga berkurangg hahaha
setelah jam 2 siang kami memutuskan untuk makan siang Di DK a.K.a Donar Kebab dengan Rp. 11.000,- anda akan kenyang,dan pengeluran berkurang
naah abis makan kita balik lagi ke XXI buat nge -check,makin rame atau makin sepi disana...
nahh di XXI gw ketemu temen yang udah lama ngak ketemu kayak Andra,nIno,,,nah mereka rasanya ngak percaya gw ,hahaha karena sudah lama ngak bertemu hahahaha
nah,,,setelah itu dan sambil menunggu mesin MT kosong kami sudah mumutuskan untuk memainkan permainan baru seperti TEKKEN 6, Time crissis 3,Initial D 5,rambo,DLL,,yah kami mencoba sesuatu hal yang baru,,karena tekanan sosial orang yang mau main MT dan tidak gantiann ahahhaha

Ketika Pukul 5 sudah datang.,,,kami mulai beranjak untuk pulangg sebelum pulang kerumah kami meng-antar ANTO aliaas SuryaNto teman kami DI puri,,ke rumahnya karena kami dekat,
nah dari situ,,kami pulang ke rumah dengan cepat karena saya dan Nuel ingin kegereja di MKK..

setelah jam 6 gw kegereja dengan pacar gw,,dan nama pacar gw adalah Caecilia Sherinna
naah dijalan gw ketemu sama orang yang rasanya ngak mungkin kegereja seperti Ogy a.K.a Made prayogie atw The gradaxx dan Adit Mina a.K.a bernadus aditya..
kita bertemu di depan Metro permata dideket dunkin donutz

beberapa saat kemudian..kita sampai di tempat tersebut yang disebut gereja MKK,,(maria karamel kudus)
kita berdoa dengan umat lain sekitar 1 1/2 jam

nah dari situ gw dan pacar gw mw pulang karena gw mw ke monas ma temen-temen,,gila,,jadwal sabtu gw kali ini padett bangeett,,,
naah dari hums cwek gw,,gw ngapel bntar,,hahahha
bis itu baru gw kerumah acunk a.K.a christanto untuk konfirmasi akan keberangkatan kita ke monas,,dan setelah gw sampe rumah acunk ternyata yang ikut cuma 4 orang dan gw bilang "dikit amat orangnya"
dan gw pulang untuk memberitahu pada orang tua gw bahwa gw mw pergi,,dan ternyata TIDAK DIBOLEHKAN hahahha
nah gw telpon tuh orang semua bahwa gw ngak boleh ikut,,
itu lah cerita gw pada hari sabtu 13-06-09

GIMANA CERITA LO???

The end For this saturday

Futsal + Selai Strawberry

2009-06-08T23:51:00.000-07:00

Ah,Sorry ngak pake Bahasa Inggris,,soalnya lagi males,,hahaha

Oke kita mulai dengan Perbincangan hari ini
Hari ini Gw Sial banget gara-gara selai strawberry..

Berawal dari Bangun pagi Jam 8 pagi..,sebelum nya cwek gw telpon jam 7.20 pagi karena mw ingetin gw akan jadwal gw tapi gw belum bangun jadi muuph yah,yank,,hahaha dan akhirnya dia SMS gw...
Kita bicarakan POsting gw hari nie
gw ada jadwal main Futsal sama temen-temen gw..
karena waktunya kurang cukup,,gw minta INDOMIE..eh karena gw belum sampe 1 minggu makan INDOMIE,so gw ngak boleh makan INDOMIE,jadi gw memutuskan untuk makan ROTI,dengan selai Strawberry,,karena gw suka Strawberry,,..awalnya rasa enak di lidah,dan gw yakin gw ngak akan kenapa-kenapa saat main nanti...Gw berangkat dengan membawa TAS dengan isi =
- Sepatu
- Minum
- HP
- Kaos kaki

Rute pertama yang gw datengin adalah Rumah CristeL,
pas sesampainya Disana,ternyata Carren A.K.A Awen dan RabIn A.K.A EtI/Embe/18
sudah sampe duluan,,dari rumah Cristel kita langsung cabut ke Tempat Futsal,
Tempat FutsaL terseBut ada di barata di deket INDOMARET,(*Dah kayak mw promosi ajah)
nah bgtu masuk,,anak-anak udah pada dateng,
- Aldi
- Jasson
- Nico
- Christanto A.K.A Acunk
sedangkan yang lain baru menyusul kayak ROBBY,Brandon, Army,Jerry A.K.A Ojeb,Adit Mina,Leonardi A.K.A LEpay/YEllow,,hahaha
nah awalnya sih gw main oke2 ajah,,Tiba2 pas main Gw merasa Pusing dan Penglihatan gw jadi burem cuma bisa liat fokus,,sisanya mulai berawarna hitam
gila,,, udah rasanya mual,+ ditambah bgtuan lagii,,sialan banget pagi2 bgini
Gw pergi kesamping lapangan,,gw istirahat,,di gantiin Sama NICO,nah gw minum,,dan istirahat,sejenak
haha
setelah enakan sekitar 5 menit, gw main lagi,,awalnya gw masih gesit buat ngejer bola dan mencetak GoL,,tapi lama kelamaan penyakitnya kambuh lagi,,gara-gara selai strawberry doang gw jadi ngak bisa main dengan maksimal,,sial tuh selai...
gw istirahat,,gw tiduran di pinggir lapangan..gw minta digantiin cristeL
,,setelah enakan dikit gw mikir,,gimna cara main biar penyakita gw ngak langsung kambuh,,Dan saat gw dapetin itu,,penyakit gw pas udah ngak kerasa lagi,,yasudahh pas gw mencoba main untuk ke-3 kalinya,,akhirnya gw bisa main sampai waktunya habis..tanpa merasa mual atau pusing seperti tadi..
malah pas mw udahan Spatu gw rusak total lagi,,sampe ngak bisa dipake lagi,,
haha..
tapi bgtu selesai main,,rasa nya kayak nge-fly,,udah ngak berasa apa-apa,,dan sampe rumah,gw rasanya pingin tiduran mulu,,hahahah
yasudahh cukup Itu cerita gw FUTSAL & Selai strawberry
hahah

-The END for Today-

When i was Child..

2009-05-25T21:34:00.000-07:00

From a CHild -> a MAN (story)

before you will be a man,, you must passing child phase, i'm too, when i'm child.. it's so Beautifull, We don't know What we thinking.. why we do then we say it crazy..when we are child..we are shy.,because, we don't know who are they and what are they..when we are cry,our parents come and hug us,and say " don't cry,your mom or dad is here "..
try to thinking what happend in The previous time..

my dad always protect me with his power, and my mother protect me with her love,, is very nice,, but we must grow up..
when i see the school for the firs time, i thinking i will like it,,but, when i go to HeadMaster office for a registration, i feel i was afraid, don't know why i'm afraid? my Father and Mother always say "Stay relax,don't be afraid,your parents is over here",when they always say that,i always nid and say "ya"
my child's story is normaly like where you were child

MY experience is so expensive,can't buy with money,and will be imagine that..

MY EXPERIENCE WHERE I DON'T WANT TO FORGET

When i grade 5, i have go to school everyday..
like you,i'm naugthy..my naughty is normal, say a word where we don't say it..in final test, i don't study..and you know,what happend if STUDENT isn't study?!
yeah.. I almost did not increase the class,but, i increased the class only i can make my score in grade 6 better than now,, and i'm promised..

hahaha so that's my experience..

ohh,,ohh

i have a new one..
my first Gift from foreign's people..
i have meet a philipine people, and she very nice,and she is EMO's girl..
when My age is increased,,at 8 febuary 2009..

she make or editing my photos,,and she gave me again..it's so cool,,i never have a gift from anyone like that..so i say to her thank you very much..even though not too good but I appreciate

this is my photos

THE END

Awal hidup cerah yang dimulai dari mimpi buruk

2009-05-25T03:55:00.000-07:00

ABOUT ME

Name = Adrian
Hobby= Swiming,Diving, Play Soccer

that's a little about me,,As we known my friend call me is Nyo-nyo or Nyo

if you want know me deeper,can call me or see my Friendster and Facebook
i have MSN and YM too
and my email is
Friendster & Facebook = kak_brian@yahoo.com
MSN = adrian_nsr@live.com
YM = adrian_chey@yahoo.co.id
(with _ )
Let me tell you about my live
i have 3 siblings,and that are Xena,garry,and andrew
as you know, if we have a brother and sister,we will fight with them
because i'm normaly human.. i do it too

i have A STORY

Start or begin from i have a girl,as we know, if we have a girl (boys), our parents isn't agree with us,right??

my parents is don't know at first time i have a girl,as long as i hide her from my parents,my sister tell my parents about my girl,and my parents call me, because that..
so they teach me how a relationship can be long..

i hear it,and i think "i haven't thinking a relationship in mine can be longer but i just Wish it be long"..hahaha.. after they telling me,i went to my room and brood it, and the result is i can't thinking what i mean and that is gone.. a minute later i was aware and thinking about her until 30 minutes..yeah that's so long to you,but so short time to me,
after that day, i meet her, with her smile,i give my smile to her too.. so she laugh with my smile and i say " what's wrong with me?" she said " nothing but your smile is funny,you know?"

we laugh together at school,,

yeah that was i in primary school,6th grade..

one day, she said what i can't accept, she want break with me,,i can't accept after i make her Smile,and love me,but she make me hurt,and make me sad, but i know i can't accept it,but i can desire her, so hard..

and i have a photo with her

ok,i increased class,from 6th-7th grade

my love's story is normaly like my first love.hahaha

ok,before begining of the academic year,i go to Subaru's island..

that is so beautifull, and i love it..my plan or purpose I came that place is for do my hobby,that is diving..i diving with a trip,the trip is 3 days 2 night

with 3 Days,i have diving 1 days with 3 times + 1 night dive,,that is fun, but i must go home, after 3 days..

and this is my photo

i found a girl, she is very beautifull but her body is thin..but I stuck because of her beauty.
yeah,i have been to take a photo with her,that is so Sweet

haha,, the start is very nice..but, i do it with love to her,and she very love me too..for this time my relationship is very nice and i have a first kiss with her,first i try,that's funny you know,,but make us to do it again..hahaha,,and finally i do a french kiss,yeah that's so good,my story is normal but my real story isn't normal,^_^v .my relationship is so long.. it's almost 1 years 5 month, but we got a problem.. that is because my false,she want a break to me, yeah it's so difficult to me to give her to another boy..."SHIT~!", i don't know what to do,just looking around,,see A Couple,I envy with that couple..so sick, see her with new boy,,

after 2 weeks i meet my first love,and i think " i like her again,and if i go closer,i will take her be mine",and time is continue to revolve ,and finally i ask her to be mine, and she want it too, but my relationship is not good,,because my former girlfriend of the last, like me again, i'm confused to choice who is to be mine,,.. when i choice, i'm very late, because they have been fight, and i know i made a mistake,,and alone again,again,and again,... just see couples have kissing,hug,and go around,with smile,.. but me???? i can't smile,can't kiss,can't hug anyone,just my familyi,...can't do it with my love..so sick,so hurt, can't make her HAPPY and FUN..

arghhh,,,..

be imagined,,

T_T....

allright..

you want asked me what is my BEATIFULL dream??where that gone to be real?? yeah

i will answer your asked

My beatifull dream is begin from, i meet one Girl,,yeah,,we exchange stories,where she like a boy, and i like a girl, so unexpected, i like her, and i'm not dare to say that..after 3 weeks ago,I continue to regard him,before i make a decision,i'm confused to choice My first love,or her,...that is so confused,,make me very confused,,.. and i make a dicision, i will take her to be mine,,she is Caecillia Sherina..i know,,she is not normal in my eyes,she not too pretty,not too tall,but can make heart melt,..and she can make me be a good guy in the future...

with her, i have a photo,

there is :

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